As the saying goes “you will never realize how much your mother love you until you became a mother yourself too.”
Last July 9, 2014 I gave birth to my daughter Andrei Monique with my mother Ellen by my side all along. Francis, my husband is a seafarer and on board at the time our daughter was born. Andrei Monique weight 2.9 kg delivered via C-section at around 1:20 pm, she was a bouncing healthy baby. When my baby was born I knew from that moment that my life will never be the same again.
The moment we went home together with my bundle of joy, sleepless nights became my best friend. I became exhausted, tired, and at times in the middle of the night cried for the stressful moment. I am terrified and I can say that at the first few months not yet ready for the changes in my life.
I became a new person, my mood swings worsen as my priorities shifted from me to her. I easily got bored from my daily routine; even my husband noticed the changes in me. The sweet, caring, and understanding person was lost. In contrary, a hot-tempered, doubtful, and insecure individual was brought into existence. I have anger management issues.
When I looked at the mirror I saw a helpless person within, and I started to question myself if I made a mistake by choosing the life I have now. I got married at 24 with no stable job, got pregnant, gave birth and at the same time became a wife. I was not emotionally prepared for it.
As time passed by, I change the way I looked at things in my own life, my own reality, my own family. I became optimistic and from that time I was relived from the tension happening in me. The pressure of being a first time mom was too much for me to handle. I eventually accepted that life was harder for me especially that my husband was away.
Being a first time mom for me is like playing the rock-paper-scissor game. There is a rocky bumpy road you need to walk through to reach the cemented road after. A paper you write your memories with; and a scissor that will cut you to pieces in order to fix uneven edges of your mistakes.
Today, whenever I feel insecure from being a full time mom, I am reminded of how far I’ve been from the skinny me to the present curvy woman I am now. My body can tell a thousand stories of sacrifices I’ve done for my own family, my dear child and to my hardworking husband whose sacrifice also equals the time he should have spent with us but choose to work to provide our needs.
The changes in me made me a better person. I am bolder, stronger and lucky to have been blessed with a child to love and care for. As my daughter continues to smile with a happy and contented heart I will be the most fulfilled mother in the world. Once you become a mother, you become one of the world’s finest heroes. My mom is my hero, I am a hero, every mother is a hero.
Wow! This refreshed my memories when I gave birth to my first child. I agree that once you became a mother too, you will realize how your mother loved you. It is really a life changing experience to be a mom, and for first timers it is never easy. Everything will change starting from yourself, that you will give your all for your partner and most specially to your child. We have to remember that we also need to take care of ourselves, we must be strong mentally and physically, so that we can take good care of the family. Being a mom is the most wonderful thing that would happen in a women's life!
Wow! This refreshed my memories when I gave birth to my first child. I agree that once you became a mother too, you will realize how your mother loved you. It is really a life changing experience to be a mom, and for first timers it is never easy. Everything will change starting from yourself, that you will give your all for your partner and most specially to your child. We have to remember that we also need to take care of ourselves, we must be strong mentally and physically, so that we can take good care of the family. Being a mom is the most wonderful thing that would happen in a women's life!